- Chapter 1 Standard Rate: Two Thousand Yen per Hour
- Chapter 2 Practicing the Smile
- Chapter 3 A Sunday Stroll with Mr. Sato
- Chapter 4 Family Recipes for Strangers
- Chapter 5 The Script on the Commuter Train
- Chapter 6 Tea, Sweets, and Fabricated Memories
- Chapter 7 A Call from My Real Mother
- Chapter 8 Ghost in the Living Room
- Chapter 9 Overtime at the Hospital Bed
- Chapter 10 Performance Review
- Chapter 11 The Scent of Camphor and Loneliness
- Chapter 12 Forbidden Gifts
- Chapter 13 Playing the Prodigal Child
- Chapter 14 Cracks in the Mask
- Chapter 15 Photos in Matching Frames
- Chapter 16 The Client Who Knew Too Much
- Chapter 17 Rain on the Shared Umbrella
- Chapter 18 Calculating the Emotional Debt
- Chapter 19 An Unexpected Wake
- Chapter 20 Crying on the Clock
- Chapter 21 The Agency's Golden Rule
- Chapter 22 Sunday Dinner with an Empty Chair
- Chapter 23 The Weight of a Borrowed Name
- Chapter 24 Contract Renewal
- Chapter 25 Stepping Out of the Role
- Chapter 26 The Final Invoice
Rental Daughter, Hourly Rate
Table of Contents
CHAPTER ONE: Standard Rate: Two Thousand Yen per Hour
The agency was tucked on the fourth floor of a narrow, beige-tiled building in Kanda, wedged between an import-export trading firm that smelled permanently of scorched cardboard and an acupuncture clinic whose glass door was lined with faded anatomical charts. There was no brass plaque outside, nor any glossy vinyl lettering to indicate what transpired behind suite 402. Only a printed slip of white paper slid into a cracked plastic holder: Heartbeat Companion Services, Inc.
When I opened the door, a tiny chime sounded overhead—two flat, metallic pings that sounded like pennies falling into an aluminum cup.
Behind the laminate counter sat Suzuki-san. He was a man in his late fifties with skin the color of unbleached parchment, thin silver-framed spectacles resting midway down a nose that looked as though it had once been broken in a high school judo match, and an off-the-rack grey suit that hung loose around his narrow shoulders. He was dipping a triangular rice ball wrapped in plastic into a paper cup of lukewarm green tea, his eyes glued to an Excel spreadsheet on an ancient desktop monitor with a yellowed plastic chassis.
"Mizuki-san," he murmured without looking up. "You are twelve minutes early. The client has not completed his preliminary assessment."
"I took the rapid train from Ochanomizu," I said, setting my umbrella in the blue plastic bucket by the shoe rack and sliding out of my loafers. I stepped into a pair of sanitized brown vinyl slippers that smelled faintly of hospital disinfectant. "I thought it was better to review the intake sheet before we did the introduction."
Suzuki-san tapped the spacebar on his keyboard, then picked up a red pen to circle something on a physical clipboard. "Commendable. Professionalism is eighty percent timing and twenty percent neutral facial expressions. Remember that. The remaining percent does not exist." He handed the clipboard over the counter. "Here is the summary. Client code: T-409. Name: Takahashi Noboru. Age: seventy-two. Widowed four years ago. Former middle manager at a textile distribution plant in Saitama. No living relatives within three prefectures."
I took the clipboard and skimmed the printout. The font was small and dense, printed with a ribbon that had seen better days.
"Reason for service request?" I asked.
"Option D," Suzuki-san said, finally biting into the rice ball. Rice flakes settled on the cuff of his shirt. "Social simulation. Domestic accompaniment. Specifically, an adult daughter returning from Tokyo for an afternoon visit. He selected the basic tier."
"Two thousand yen per hour," I remarked.
"Two thousand two hundred with tax, though your cut remains fourteen hundred after the agency deduction and local administrative fees," he reminded me smoothly. "We provide the insurance. If he drops a teapot or tries to hand you an unregistered cash gift, you are covered by our standard indemnity clause. You have read Section 8?"
"Twice," I said. "No direct gifts over five hundred yen in value. No physical contact beyond an assisted elbow on stairs or an uninitiated hand clasp during moments of documented emotional distress. No exchanging personal line IDs, telephone numbers, or home addresses. If the client asks where I live, I reside in a studio apartment in Koenji and work in the logistics department of a stationery wholesaler."
"Very good. Don't invent specific train stations on the Chuo Line unless pressed," Suzuki-san added, his pen scratching against a carbon-copy ledger. "If you say Koenji, they inevitably want to know which exit you use and whether that old tofu shop under the tracks is still run by the man with the lazy eye. Stick to broad strokes. Say your commute is crowded and your boss is strict but fair. Every Japanese father between sixty-five and eighty understands a strict boss. It comforts them. It proves the world has not changed entirely since 1989."
I sat on the grey vinyl sofa in the waiting area, resting the clipboard on my knees. The air conditioning unit hummed a high, vibrating note in the ceiling corner, rattling its plastic vent louvers. On the low glass coffee table lay three magazines: an outdated issue of a domestic travel weekly featuring hot springs in Gunma, a men’s golf digest with a bent cover, and a catalog of orthopedic footwear.
I was twenty-seven years old. My rent in Nakano was sixty-four thousand yen, due on the twenty-seventh of every month. My real father lived in Niigata, where he spent his days drinking dry sake and ignoring telephone calls from credit collection agencies regarding a failed home-renovation business he had started during the second Abe administration. My real mother had moved to Shizuoka with a man who repaired boat engines and sent me a box of slightly bruised mikan oranges every December, usually accompanied by a postcard that said nothing more profound than, It is cold, do not catch a chill.
In Tokyo, filial devotion was not a sacred inheritance; it was an hourly transaction with an invoice attached.
The inner office door opened with a soft click.
A small, stooped man emerged, escorted by Sato-san, the agency's other coordinator, who bowed low and retreated behind the copy machine. The man had a full head of white hair cut very short, resembling the bristly coat of an old terrier. He wore a beige windbreaker over a plaid button-down shirt that had been ironed with great precision, the collar stiffened with aerosol starch. His dark trousers were hemmed slightly too short, revealing black socks with white ribbed soles and polished brown walking shoes. In his left hand, he gripped the leather loop of a folding umbrella, though the sky outside was entirely clear.
"Takahashi-san," Suzuki-san said, rising from his chair with a practiced, fluid bow that tilted his spine at precisely thirty degrees. "Thank you for waiting. This is Mizuki-san. She will be handling your appointment this afternoon."
Takahashi-san stopped three paces away. He looked at me, blinked twice, and then looked down at the carpet between our shoes. His knuckles were thick and slightly swollen at the joints, the skin mottled with the pale brown liver spots common to men who had spent their thirties smoking mild sevens under industrial fluorescent bulbs.
"Ah," he said. His voice was gravelly, caught low in his throat. "Good afternoon."
"Good afternoon, Takahashi-san," I said, rising and bowing at an angle just slightly deeper than Suzuki-san’s—the modest, dutiful deference of an unmarried daughter who was glad to see her elder, but who remained conscious of her station. "It is very nice to meet you."
He swallowed. I watched his Adam's apple rise and fall above the stiff collar of his plaid shirt. For a second, he seemed on the verge of turning back toward the street door, his fingers tightening on the umbrella loop until the leather creaked. It was a common reaction. Most first-timers spent twenty minutes convincing themselves they had made a mistake, that they were neither so pathetic nor so abandoned as to pay a young woman in an off-white knit sweater to drink tea with them.
"She looks... she is taller than I thought," Takahashi-san said to Suzuki-san, not looking at me.
"Mizuki-san is five-foot-four," Suzuki-san replied smoothly, as if quoting the dimensions of a cabinet. "An excellent height for walking. Very stable."
Takahashi-san nodded slowly, digesting this metric. "My... my daughter, Mayumi, was five-foot-two. But she wore those thick-soled shoes. The platform ones. In the late nineties."
"I see," I said, offering a small, soft smile that didn't show my teeth. "These days, flat soles are much more practical for walking along the river."
He looked up then, meeting my eyes for the first time. His eyes were small, watery, and surrounded by fine webs of wrinkles that looked like cracked porcelain. There was neither malice nor hunger in them, only an overwhelming, paralyzing embarrassment. It was the face of a man who had dropped his wallet in a crowded subway car and had to ask everyone around him to help pick up the loose one-yen coins.
"Shall we go?" he asked.
"Of course," I said, stepping into my loafers at the entrance. "Lead the way, Father."
The word—Otousan—hung in the air between us for a fraction of a second, solid and heavy as a damp towel. A muscle jumped in his jaw. Then his shoulders dropped an inch, the defensive hunch softening just enough to let his coat fall naturally against his back.
"Yes," he muttered. "Let's go. Before the afternoon gets too warm."
We walked down the four flights of concrete stairs rather than taking the elevator. Takahashi-san’s knees made a dry, clicking sound on every third step, but he refused my offer to use the handrail on the left, keeping his right hand free to balance himself against the textured wall. I matched his stride, lagging half a step behind his right shoulder. That was the rule: always let them lead, always make them feel as though they were navigating the city for you, even if their eyes were failing and they took thirty seconds to judge the curb at an intersection.
Outside, the autumn sun was pale and high, casting sharp, grey shadows across the asphalt of Kanda’s backstreets. The air smelled of vehicle exhaust, fried pork cutlets from a corner basement diner, and the faint, dusty scent of dry leaves being swept into plastic bags by a shopkeeper down the block.
"Where are we headed?" I asked casually, keeping my tone light, casual, slightly inquisitive.
"The station," he said. "The bakery by the west entrance. They have those French rolls. The ones with the sweet bean paste inside. Your mother used to say they were too sweet, but she always ate half of mine anyway."
"The ones with the sesame seeds on top?" I asked, inventing a detail to fill the space.
"No seeds," he corrected me immediately, a tiny spark of authority entering his voice. "Just plain flour dusted over the crust. Very hard on the outside. You have to chew them properly. Young people don't chew their food enough these days. Everything is soft now. Pudding. Hamburg steak. Even the bread doesn't fight back."
"You're right," I said with a light laugh. "My generation has weak jaws."
He glanced at me sideways, checking to see if I was mocking him. Finding only my neutral, agreeable profile, he grunted with satisfaction. "It’s the truth. When I was thirty, we ate dried squid while we drank beer after nine o'clock. If your jaw didn't ache in the morning, you hadn't had a proper evening."
We walked along the narrow sidewalk toward the station. It was two o'clock on a Tuesday. The streets were populated mostly by deliverymen pushing hand-trucks, young mothers with bicycles fitted with heavy plastic child seats, and other elderly men who walked with their hands clasped behind their backs, staring into the windows of closed real estate agencies.
Takahashi-san walked with a distinct limp, his left foot turning slightly outward. Every two hundred meters, he paused before a storefront—a stationary shop, a dry cleaner, an empty lot where a building had recently been scraped down to bare dirt—and pretended to inspect the goods or the construction notice. I knew what these pauses were. His breath was shallow, his lungs struggling to keep pace with the moderate incline of the street.
"Look at this," he said, pointing his umbrella tip at a vending machine. "One hundred and sixty yen for a can of black coffee. When I started at the company, it was eighty. A man could take five hundred yen and have coffee, a pack of cigarettes, and still have enough left over for the evening paper."
"It’s ridiculous now," I agreed. "Everything goes up except the salaries."
"Are they paying you properly?" he asked suddenly.
The question caught me off guard, though it shouldn't have. It was in the agency's manual under Common Dialogues, Scenario 3: The Client Inquires About Financial Stability.
"I manage," I said, offering the prescribed answer. "The company gives us a bonus in the winter if the targets are met."
"They cheat you on the overtime, I bet," he grumbled, resuming his slow walk. "All the medium-sized outfits do. They call it 'fixed overtime allowance' and make you work sixty hours past the threshold. You shouldn't let them do that, Mayumi. You were always too quiet. In middle school, when that girl took your gym uniform by mistake, you sat in the changing room until everyone left instead of asking for it back."
A chill, thin and sharp, prickled the back of my neck.
He wasn't pretending to be with a daughter named Mayumi anymore. The script had slipped. In his mind, the two thousand yen per hour had bought him a time machine, and I had dissolved into the ghost of a girl who had lost her gym clothes in 1994.
The agency handbook was very clear on this point: Do not argue with the client’s historical revisions unless they become dangerous, defamatory, or physically inappropriate. Smooth transitions are preferable to disruptive corrections.
"I got the uniform back the next day, though," I said softly, gambling on the universal logic of middle school drama.
Takahashi-san stopped. He looked at me, his eyes narrowing slightly behind his thick lenses. For three seconds, four seconds, the city hummed around us—the distant whine of a motorcycle, the clatter of a train passing overhead on the elevated JR tracks.
"Did you?" he asked.
"Yes," I said, smiling with the mild confidence of an adult looking back on childhood embarrassments. "Her mother found it in her bag and washed it. It smelled like lavender detergent."
He stared at me for another long moment, his chest rising and falling beneath the beige windbreaker. Then the tension left his forehead, the wrinkles smoothing back into their familiar grooves.
"Your mother hated lavender," he said quietly. "She said it smelled like public bathrooms."
"She did," I said.
We reached the bakery near the west exit of the station. It was a modern franchise, brightly lit with warm, yellow LEDs, smelling powerfully of melting butter, caramelized sugar, and hot yeast. A row of young women in brown aprons and matching paper visors worked behind the glass counter, using stainless steel tongs to arrange trays of croissants and melon pan.
Takahashi-san picked up a plastic tray and a pair of tongs from the stack by the door. His hand trembled slightly, the metal tongs clicking against the rim of the tray like a castanet.
"Get whatever you want," he said, his voice dropping into the gruff register Japanese men use when they want to appear generous without seeming sentimental. "Don't look at the prices."
"Thank you, Father," I said.
I picked a plain sugar donut—the cheapest item on the central display, priced at one hundred and twenty yen. To pick something expensive, like the Danish with the imported cherries or the smoked salmon sandwich, would disrupt the performance; a good daughter returning home was supposed to be modest, conscious of her father's fixed pension, yet willing to accept a small treat to make him feel capable.
He looked at my donut and frowned. "Is that all? Get the one with the ham. You look thin. You're skipping breakfast again, aren't you?"
"I had toast this morning," I lied. "The donut is fine. I really like this kind."
He grunted, picked up two of the hard French rolls he had mentioned earlier, and then, with an awkward, jerky movement of his elbow, reached out and grabbed a thick slice of castella cake wrapped in cellophane. He set it on the tray next to my donut.
"Your mother liked castella," he said, not looking at me. "Take it back to your apartment."
"Thank you," I said. "I'll have it with tea tonight."
At the cash register, he took out an old, folding leather wallet that had lost all its dye along the seams. He peeled two thousand-yen bills from a thin stack of cash with a thumb that he licked twice, his movements deliberate, slow, and heavy with the gravity of an old-fashioned breadwinner. The girl behind the counter, who could not have been more than nineteen, waited with an expression of polished, glassy detachment, her fingers dancing over the touch screen.
"One thousand four hundred and eighty yen," she chimed.
He laid the two bills in the small blue plastic change tray. When she handed back the five-hundred-yen coin and the two ten-yen pieces, he didn't put them back in the coin purse. He slid them across the counter toward me.
"For your train fare," he said.
My heart gave a small, rhythmic thud against my ribs. Rule 4: No direct gifts over five hundred yen in value. Five hundred and twenty yen was twenty yen over the limit. If Suzuki-san found out from the client log or if Takahashi-san mentioned it during his exit survey, I would receive a formal warning and a five-thousand-yen deduction from my monthly agency retainer.
"No, Father," I said, gently pushing his hand back toward his wallet. "The agency... I mean, the company covers my transit pass. You keep it for the paper tomorrow."
He stared at the coins in his hand. The skin around his mouth tightened, the tiny lines deepening into pale furrows.
"I can't even give my own daughter five hundred yen?" he whispered.
The girl behind the counter was already looking past us, scanning the small queue that had formed behind Takahashi-san’s stooped back. An office worker in a navy blue suit was shifting his weight from foot to foot, checking his smartphone with an irritated flick of his thumb.
"Thank you," I said quickly, reaching out and closing my fingers over his dry, cold knuckles, scooping the silver coin and the bronze pieces into my palm. "I'll use it for the bus on the way back."
The relief on his face was so sudden, so total, that it looked almost obscene. His shoulders relaxed, his lips parted, and he gave a short, whistling breath through his nose.
"Good," he said, turning toward the exit with his white plastic bag of bread swinging from his wrist. "Good. A father should pay for the bus. That's how it's supposed to be."
We walked back toward the small park behind the municipal library. It wasn't really a park—just a rectangular patch of asphalt with two green-painted benches, a water fountain shaped like a concrete mushroom, and a pair of dying ginkgo trees whose leaves were turning a sickly, mottled yellow before dropping onto the chain-link fence that separated the ground from the railroad embankment.
We sat on the bench. The wood was cold through the fabric of my skirt.
Takahashi-san set the plastic bag between us. He didn't eat his roll. He simply rested his hands on his knees, his breath forming tiny, invisible plumes of vapor in the shade of the library wall. Every few minutes, a commuter train would roar past on the tracks above us, the iron wheels screeching against the curved rails, drowning out the city and leaving a heavy, grease-tinged silence in their wake.
"Mayumi doesn't call," he said.
He said it to the concrete mushroom fountain, not to me.
I kept my hands folded in my lap, the five-hundred-yen coin still warm inside the pocket of my cardigan. "She’s busy, probably. Work can be difficult."
"She’s in Fukuoka," he continued, his voice flat, devoid of the earlier gravelly bluster. "She married an accountant. He has three sisters. They don't like visitors. When your mother died, Mayumi came for the cremation, but she had to take the night train back because of her husband's family obligations. She didn't even stay for the seven-day memorial."
I didn't answer. The agency handbook had no script for this. In the training seminars, Suzuki-san had told us: When the client speaks the truth about their real families, do not comfort them with lies. Lies make them feel like fools. Just listen. Silence is forty percent of the hourly rate.
"I don't blame her," Takahashi-san said, his thumb scraping against the coarse denim of his trousers. "I was never home. In the eighties, I left the house at six in the morning and came back at midnight. Every day. Even Saturdays. I thought that was what a man was supposed to do. If you bring home the money, the family exists. If you stop bringing the money, the family vanishes. That’s what they taught us."
He turned his head slowly, looking at me with those small, rheumy eyes.
"Now I have the money," he said, gesturing vaguely with one liver-spotted hand toward his jacket pocket where his wallet rested. "I have the pension. I have the savings from the plant. And there is nobody to give it to. I have to hire a girl from Kanda to take a walk with me so I don't forget how to use my vocal cords."
A pigeon landed with a dry flutter of wings near our feet, pecked at a piece of gravel, found it worthless, and waddled away toward the fence.
"Your voice is very clear, Takahashi-san," I said softly.
He gave a short, self-deprecating snort that ended in a wet cough. He reached into his windbreaker, pulled out a neatly pressed white handkerchief, and dabbed at his nose.
"You're a good girl," he said. "What is your real name?"
"Mizuki," I said. "Mizuki Rei."
"Rei," he repeated, testing the sound against his teeth. "The character for 'beautiful'?"
"No. The one for 'tinkling of jade.' My mother liked old poetry."
"Ah," he said. "A difficult character. Takes too many strokes to write on an envelope."
"Yes," I said. "It does."
We sat in silence for another twenty minutes. A train passed every four minutes—the yellow Chuo-Sobu line heading east toward Chiba, the orange rapid trains cutting west toward Shinjuku and Takao. We didn't talk about his daughter again. We didn't talk about his deceased wife, or the textile mill in Saitama, or my fictional apartment in Koenji. We watched the pigeon circle the mushroom fountain three times. We watched a young woman in an apron come out of the library basement to dump a blue plastic bucket of grey soapy water down the storm drain.
At three-fifty, I shifted my feet slightly, letting the leather of my loafers creak against the pavement.
Takahashi-san heard it. He looked down at his wristwatch—a heavy, stainless-steel Seiko from the late seventies with a scratched crystal.
"It's time," he said.
"We should walk back to the agency," I said. "Suzuki-san likes to complete the paperwork before four-thirty."
He stood up, using both hands to push off against his knees. I stood beside him, resisting the instinct to reach out and steady his elbow. He had his pride back now; the hour was ending, the transaction was concluding, and the boundary between customer and commodity had to be re-established before we crossed the threshold of suite 402.
We walked back in silence. The afternoon light had shifted, the long shadows of the office buildings stretching across the avenues like dark, parallel bars. The streets were getting busier now, filled with junior high school students walking home in groups of three and four, their heavy canvas school bags slung over their shoulders, laughing at private jokes that echoed off the plate-glass storefronts.
At the entrance to the building in Kanda, Takahashi-san stopped.
He handed me the white plastic bag from the bakery.
"The castella," he said. "Take it."
"Thank you, Takahashi-san," I said, accepting the bag by its thin handles. "It looks very delicious."
He looked at me for a second, his mouth opening as if to say something else—perhaps to say Mayumi, or perhaps to apologize, or perhaps simply to ask if I would be available next Tuesday at the same rate. But he didn't. He merely gave a stiff, jerky nod, turned his back to me, and pushed open the heavy glass door with both palms.
The inner office was warm and smelled of stale green tea and ozone from the copy machine. Suzuki-san was still at his desk, his spreadsheet now replaced by a paper ledger into which he was entering figures using an old mechanical pencil with a red eraser.
"Everything concluded satisfactorily?" Suzuki-san asked without looking up.
"Yes," Takahashi-san said, his voice regaining that formal, flat tone he had used when he first walked in. "The walk was acceptable."
"Excellent. If you would sign here, Takahashi-san. On line three."
Takahashi-san took the red ballpoint pen from the small wooden cup on the counter. He signed his name with slow, careful strokes, his hand steady now that he had a functional purpose again. He pulled two crisp ten-thousand-yen notes from his wallet, laid them on the counter, and waited while Suzuki-san counted out his change from a steel lockbox under the desk.
"Four thousand four hundred yen for two hours, including tax," Suzuki-san said, pushing three thousand-yen notes, a five-hundred-yen coin, and a one-hundred-yen coin across the wood. "Your receipt is inside the envelope. We look forward to serving you again next week."
"Yes," Takahashi-san murmured. He took the envelope, slid it into his windbreaker pocket, picked up his umbrella, and walked out.
The metallic chime above the door gave its two flat, tinny pings.
The room was quiet except for the hum of the air conditioner and the rhythmic ticking of the wall clock above the calendar.
"He gave you something," Suzuki-san said, his pencil still moving across the paper.
I froze for half a second, my hand tightening on the handles of the bakery bag. "Just a piece of cake. From the bakery near the station. It's eighty yen worth of castella."
"And the change?"
I slid my hand into my cardigan pocket, felt the cold weight of the five-hundred-yen coin and the two ten-yen pieces, and placed them on the counter. The metal made a dull clink against the laminate surface.
Suzuki-san looked at the coins over the rims of his glasses.
"Five hundred and twenty yen," he said. "You know the rule, Mizuki-san."
"He was going to cause a scene in front of the cashier," I said, my voice level, keeping any trace of resentment or pleading out of the words. "The queue was backing up. He felt humiliated. It was better for the agency's reputation to accept it than to let him break down in public."
Suzuki-san tapped the eraser of his pencil against the edge of the ledger. Tap. Tap. Tap.
"You are twenty-seven," he said. "You have been doing this for nine months. You think that because they are old and their daughters don't visit them, they are harmless. You think their sadness makes them innocent."
"I don't think that," I said.
"A customer who gives you twenty yen over the limit today will give you a five-thousand-yen department store voucher next month," Suzuki-san said calmly, picking up the five-hundred-yen coin and sliding it into the agency's petty-cash drawer. He left the two ten-yen pieces on the counter. "Then he will want to know why you aren't wearing the sweater he bought you. Then he will want to walk down the street where his former colleagues live so they can see him with a young woman who looks like his daughter. And then, when you have to remind him that your time is billed at fourteen hundred yen an hour after deductions, he will feel that you have robbed him."
He closed the petty-cash drawer with a sharp, heavy click.
"Take the twenty yen," he said. "Take your bag. Your cut for today is two thousand eight hundred yen. I have credited it to your account for the Friday transfer."
"Thank you, Suzuki-san," I said.
I picked up the two copper coins, slipped them back into my pocket, and went into the small staff room behind the copy machine to change out of my brown vinyl slippers. My loafers were cold when I slid my feet into them.
Outside, the street was turning the deep, bruised purple of early autumn dusk. The neon signs above the izakayas were flicking on one by one, their red and yellow kanji buzzing with high-voltage gas. The salarymen were beginning to trickle out of the office buildings, their coats unbuttoned, their briefcases swinging, moving in small herds toward the basement beer halls and the yakitori stands under the railway arches.
I walked to the station, my fingers curled around the plastic bag containing the castella.
On the platform, waiting for the train to Nakano, I took the slice of cake out of the bag. It was wrapped in thick, clear plastic with a gold sticker that said Traditional Nagasaki Recipe.
I peeled back the plastic. The cake was dense, yellow, and had a thin layer of coarse brown sugar melted into the dark crust on the bottom. I took a bite. It was cloyingly sweet, tasting strongly of egg yolks and refined sugar, so dry that it stuck to the roof of my mouth and caught in my throat.
I reached into my pocket, pulled out the two ten-yen coins Takahashi-san had left me, and dropped them into the slot of a tea machine near the stairs. I pressed the button for hot roasted green tea, waited for the small paper cup to fill behind the plastic door, and drank it down in three large, scalding swallows.
The tea tasted like nothing at all. But it washed the sugar away, leaving only the dull, clean metallic aftertaste of the paper cup and the evening air.
CHAPTER TWO: Practicing the Smile
The bathroom mirror in my Nakano apartment had a silvering defect in the lower right corner, an irregular bloom like frost spreading across stagnant pond water. Every morning at seven, while the water for instant drip coffee sputtered in the electric kettle, I stood in front of that tarnished glass and trained my zygomaticus major muscles to lift the corners of my mouth exactly seven millimeters.
Seven millimeters was the threshold. If you smiled wider—if the corners of your lips curled too high, pulling the apples of your cheeks into taut mounds—you looked like an eager department store clerk trying to clear obsolete cosmetics before inventory audit. If you smiled less than five millimeters, you looked like an exhausted office worker enduring an unprompted lecture on corporate compliance during a Friday evening train delay.
A daughter’s smile, according to the laminated internal manual distributed during my two-day induction at Heartbeat Companion Services, required an appearance of affectionate familiarity slightly muted by adult preoccupations. It had to convey two distinct propositions simultaneously: I am fundamentally delighted to see your face, and I have taken time away from my independent, busy life purely out of respect for your position in the family.
I held a wooden chopstick horizontally between my molars to set the jawline, keeping my teeth parted just enough to avoid clenching. Suzuki-san had demonstrated this exercise on my first morning in the beige room behind the copy machine, his own mouth stretched over a splintered disposable hashi while his silver-framed spectacles sat crooked on his nose. He had looked like an elderly crane trying to swallow an oversized twig, but his voice through the wood had been completely level: "Filial warmth is an athletic discipline, Mizuki-san. You do not wait for an authentic impulse of devotion to reach your mouth. By the time an authentic impulse arrives, the client has already noticed the tension in your trapezius and assumed you resent his existence."
I spat the chopstick into the stainless-steel sink, wiped the moisture from my chin with a thin hand towel, and inspected the result. The woman in the mirror looked polite, harmless, and completely devoid of any distinct personality that might clash with an old man’s nostalgic memories. I wore no jewelry except for a thin, silver-toned watch with a white dial purchased from a sundries discount shop in Takadanobaba for twelve hundred yen. No nail polish. My hair was gathered into a low ponytail secured by a tortoiseshell clip that looked like an item one might receive as a modest birthday present from an aunt in Gunma.
My phone vibrated on the low melamine dining table. It was an email notification from the agency's automated dispatch server, timed precisely for seven-thirty.
Dispatch Notice: Case assignment S-112. Sato, Kenji. Age: 76. Assignment nature: Advance Orientation and Profile Harmonization. Time: 10:00 to 11:30. Location: Suite 402, Kanda Office. Note: High-maintenance background; preparatory review mandatory.
I opened the refrigerator, poured half a glass of unsweetened soy milk, and brought the device back to the low table. The accompanying file was eleven pages long—far thicker than Takahashi-san's modest intake sheet from the previous day.
Mr. Sato had not selected Option D from the basic menu. He had opted for the Customized Kinship Package, a tier priced at four thousand yen an hour that allowed the client to supply their own background dossier, complete with historical photographs, conversational trigger warnings, and specific narrative arcs for previous domestic disputes. When a client paid for Option D, you could invent a fictional stationery wholesaler and speak vaguely about train delays on the Chuo Line. When a client paid for Customized Kinship, you were required to memorize the name of their dead golden retriever, the exact year their eldest brother had failed the entrance examination for Waseda University, and the precise temperature at which their late wife had served barley tea in August.
I clicked open the digital attachment.
A photograph from 1996 filled the small screen. It showed a girl of about sixteen standing on the concrete steps of a suburban private high school, wearing a dark navy sailor uniform with three white stripes across the collar. She had round cheeks, uneven bangs cut straight across her eyebrows with kitchen scissors, and a small, stubborn scowl directed at the bottom left corner of the camera lens. Her name was Tomoko.
Underneath the photograph, typed in the precise, blocky font of an administrative word processor from the late nineties, were Mr. Sato’s notes:
Height: 158 centimeters. Blood type: B. Tendency toward poor posture when seated at dining tables. Dislikes shiitake mushrooms; will pick them out of miso soup and leave them on the rim of the bowl. Completed piano lessons up to Beyer Level 80 before abandoning the instrument due to lack of persistence. Ran away from home for thirty-six hours in November 1997 following a disagreement regarding university entrance preparatory tracks; returned voluntarily after running out of money for train fares.
Under the heading Current Status, there was only a single, typed sentence: Subject resides in Vancouver, Canada. Communication ceased permanently following legal settlement of maternal estate in 2014.
I set the phone down and chewed a piece of dry toast. The radiator pipe beneath the tatami floor hissed, a thin jet of steam venting into the chilly morning air with a noise like a dry tongue clicking against teeth. Outside, on the narrow asphalt alley three floors below, an elderly neighbor was methodically dragging yellow plastic netting over the municipal garbage bags to keep the crows from scattering fish bones across the pavement.
Every transaction at Heartbeat was an attempt to renegotiate a bankruptcy. Men like Takahashi-san were simply bankrupt of companionship; their accounts were empty, the ledger clean, the rooms of their small municipal apartments swept clean by indifferent welfare workers. But men who ordered the Customized Kinship Package were bankrupt in a different way. They were holding fraudulent promissory notes from thirty years ago, still trying to cash them against a world that had moved its banking operations to North America.
I arrived at the Kanda office at nine-forty-five. The elevator had broken down again, its grey sheet-metal doors jammed six inches apart on the second floor, exposing the oily black cables dangling in the concrete shaft like dissected tendons. I took the stairs, my low heels clicking rhythmically on the worn rubber treads.
Inside suite 402, the air was thicker than usual, heavy with the sharp, acidic smell of floor wax and the dry heat of an electric ceramic radiator that Suzuki-san had dragged out of the utility closet and placed directly beside his desk.
"Mizuki-san," Suzuki-san said without glancing up from a blue paper folder. "You have nine minutes. Did you review the file for S-112?"
"The daughter played the piano poorly and left home over a mock exam score," I said, slipping out of my shoes and into the brown vinyl slippers. "She lives in Canada now."
"She is a partner in an architectural firm in Vancouver," Suzuki-san corrected me smoothly, dipping an unsharpened pencil into an open jar of paper clips. "She does not return for New Year’s. She does not send cards for the equinox. Her father does not have her telephone number; he has only the postal address of her corporate office, which returns his mail unopened with a stamp indicating that personal correspondence is not accepted at that facility."
"Is he aggressive?" I asked, sitting on the edge of the vinyl sofa.
"He was an assistant director at the Ministry of International Trade and Industry," Suzuki-san replied, looking at me over his glasses. "Men who retired from the ministries in the early 2000s do not shout. Shouting is for small factory owners and people who run fruit stalls. Men from MITI express disappointment by lowering their vocal volume by three decibels and asking you to define the terms you have just used in your previous sentence. It is much more expensive to insure them."
"Then why did we accept the contract?"
Suzuki-san opened the desk drawer, took out a small glass bottle of eye drops, tilted his head back toward the fluorescent ceiling, and administered two glistening drops into each corner of his eyes. He blinked rapidly, tears of saline running down his sallow cheeks before he wiped them away with a rough paper napkin.
"Because he booked thirty hours in advance, Mizuki-san. In cash. Including the weekend surcharge and the preliminary harmonization session. The agency's cut is one hundred and twenty thousand yen. Your cut, assuming you do not contradict his memory of the 1997 winter holidays, will be sixty-eight thousand yen. For that amount of money, you can learn to dislike shiitake mushrooms."
The outer door clicked.
It did not open with the hesitant, rattling shove of Takahashi-san. It swung inward with a smooth, deliberate weight, the brass handle turned fully to its horizontal stop before the latch cleared the frame.
A man stepped into the entryway. He was tall for a Japanese man of his generation—perhaps five feet nine inches—with straight, rigid shoulders that suggested decades of sitting on high-backed leather chairs in government committee rooms. He wore a charcoal-grey wool coat cut with extreme severity, a pale grey cashmere scarf tucked neatly under his lapels, and wire-rimmed glasses with rectangular frames made of dark titanium. His hair was thin, dyed an unnaturally uniform shade of deep chestnut that had begun to grow out at the temples, revealing half an inch of pure chalk white beneath. In his right hand, he carried a black leather briefcase that showed no scratches on its polished corners.
He did not look at the shoe rack. He simply slipped his feet from his black leather oxfords, leaving them positioned precisely parallel to one another on the linoleum, and stepped onto the raised wooden floorboard.
"Good morning," he said. His voice was deep, dry, and carried the effortless projection of someone who had never had to compete with traffic noise to make himself understood.
"Good morning, Sato-san," Suzuki-san said, rising with a bow that was noticeably deeper than the one he had given the textile manager yesterday. It was the forty-five-degree tilt reserved for individuals who possessed personal stamps registered at district legal bureaus. "We are entirely prepared. This is Mizuki-san. She has reviewed the materials you were kind enough to furnish."
Mr. Sato turned his head slowly. His eyes behind the titanium-framed lenses were pale brown, cold, and possessed a terrifying, microscopic clarity. He looked at my face for five full seconds, not blinking, his gaze moving systematically from my hairline down to my collar, across my shoulders, down to my hands folded over my skirt, and finally stopping at my feet in the standard-issue agency slippers.
"Her jaw is wider than Tomoko’s," he said.
He did not say it to me. He said it to Suzuki-san, using the clipped, objective tone of a civil engineer pointing out an irregular grade in a railway embankment.
"Mizuki-san’s bone structure is slightly different, yes," Suzuki-san conceded smoothly without rising from his bow. "However, her vocal register is within two semitones of the audio sample you provided from the graduation recording, and her posture during long periods of seated discussion has received our highest internal rating."
Mr. Sato walked to the vinyl sofa, unbuttoned his coat with three precise movements of his long fingers, and laid it neatly over the back of the single armchair. He sat down, placed his briefcase flat on the glass coffee table, and clicked open the brass latches with a double snap that sounded like small-caliber pistol fire.
"Sit down, please," he said.
It was not an invitation; it was an instruction issued to a subordinate who had arrived late to a ministerial subcommittee.
I sat on the opposite end of the sofa, keeping my knees pressed together and my hands resting flat on my thighs, my spine held straight but not rigid. I engaged the seven-millimeter smile, softening the corners of my eyes by looking not directly into his pupils, but at the small, horizontal bridge of his titanium spectacles.
Mr. Sato pulled a buff-colored folder from the briefcase. Inside were three black-and-white printouts—transcripts, I realized, looking at the layout of lines and paragraph breaks.
"In December 1997," he began, his voice level and metronomic, "my daughter returned to our house in Setagaya after her unauthorized absence. She entered through the kitchen door at approximately eight-forty in the evening. Her mother was preparing dried radishes. I was sitting at the low table in the living room reviewing the annual budget allocations for regional infrastructure development."
He looked at me over the top of the papers.
"What did she say when she opened the door, Mizuki-san?"
The agency manual had warned me about this. Scenario 7: The Oral Examination. Some clients did not want to enter the illusion immediately; they wanted to test the stagehands first to ensure the ropes were secure.
"She did not speak immediately," I said, recalling page four of the dossier I had read forty minutes ago. "She took off her school satchel, set it on the third step of the stairs, and walked into the kitchen to drink a glass of cold water from the tap."
Mr. Sato did not nod. He merely turned a page with his index finger.
"And when I addressed her?"
"You asked if she had spent the money from her New Year’s savings account on long-distance bus tickets," I replied, keeping my tone measured, polite, and free of any dramatic interpretation. "And she told you that the bus tickets had been paid for by a classmate whose father owned an electronics shop in Ota Ward."
Mr. Sato remained motionless for three seconds. The only sound in suite 402 was the low, electric rattle of the ceramic heater and the wet sound of Suzuki-san’s pen scratching across a ledger behind the counter.
"The tone," Mr. Sato said, his voice dropping slightly. "You are speaking like a receptionist at an insurance firm. Tomoko did not speak to me like a receptionist. She spoke with her chin tilted upward, looking at the door of the refrigerator rather than my face. She used the abbreviated form of the negative verb. She did not say arimasen deshita. She said nakatta."
"I understand," I said.
"Try it again," he commanded. He closed the folder and rested his hands flat on the cardboard cover. His fingernails were trimmed short, buffed until they shone faintly in the fluorescent light, the cuticles pushed back with surgical precision. "I will speak first. 'You have been gone for two nights without notifying the household.'"
He paused, waiting.
I tilted my chin up five degrees. I lowered the corners of my mouth, dropping the seven-millimeter smile entirely, letting the muscles of my cheeks flatten until my expression resembled the scowling girl on the steps of the private high school in 1996. I shifted my gaze away from his titanium frames, focusing instead on the yellowed plastic housing of the wall clock behind his right shoulder.
"The phone was broken," I said, using the blunt, clipped cadence of a sixteen-year-old girl who would rather swallow glass than explain herself to a man who lived in three-piece suits. "I didn't have any hundred-yen coins anyway."
The silence that followed was different from the silence in the park with Takahashi-san. Takahashi-san’s silence had been soft, porous, and filled with the dust of old regrets. Mr. Sato’s silence was dense, pressurized, like the interior of an airlock before the pressure drops.
He stared at my profile. I did not look back at him. I kept my eyes fixed on the red second hand of the clock as it stepped through its sixty tiny increments around the plastic dial. Tick. Tick. Tick.
"Her voice was slightly more hoarse," he said finally. "She had a habit of clearing her throat before she refused an instruction. But the rhythm... the rhythm is reasonably close."
He reached into his breast pocket, took out a thin gold mechanical pencil, and made a small, precise checkmark on the corner of the buff folder.
"Tomorrow is our first scheduled session outside the facility," he said, speaking once again to Suzuki-san, not to me. "The itinerary is fixed. We will meet at the south exit of Kichijoji Station at eleven o'clock. We will walk through Inokashira Park toward the temple. We will stop at the tea house near the bridge. We will order two bowls of sweet red bean soup with toasted mochi. She will complain that the mochi is too chewy."
He turned his pale eyes back to me.
"Can you do that, Mizuki-san? Or will you tell me that your jaw is too weak for traditional rice cakes, like the girls from the vocational colleges?"
"I have no difficulty with mochi, Sato-san," I said, dropping my chin back to its professional angle, though I did not restore the smile. To smile now would be an error; a daughter who had just been rehearsed like a mechanical doll does not smile at the technician holding the screwdriver.
"Good," he said. He stood up, picked up his briefcase, and latched it with that same sharp, metallic snap. He took his charcoal coat from the back of the armchair, slid his arms into the silk-lined sleeves with a single, economical movement, and adjusted his cashmere scarf so that exactly three inches of grey wool showed above the dark collar.
He walked to the entryway, stepped into his oxfords without using a shoehorn, and paused with his hand on the brass handle.
"Two hours," he said. "Eleven to one. If it rains, we bring black umbrellas. Not transparent plastic ones from the convenience store. A family does not walk under cheap vinyl."
"Understood, Sato-san," Suzuki-san said, rising once more to his forty-five-degree angle. "We will have the billing statement prepared for your signature upon completion of the route."
The door opened, the brass latches clicked, and Mr. Sato descended into the stairwell. Through the thin floorboards, we could hear his leather soles striking the concrete steps with the steady, unhurried cadence of a pendulum.
I let my shoulders slump forward, resting my elbows on my knees. The back of my neck felt cold, damp with a light sheen of sweat that had gathered beneath my hair while he was examining my jawline.
"Well?" Suzuki-san asked, not looking up from his desk.
"He doesn't want a daughter," I said, staring at the empty space on the glass table where the briefcase had rested. "He wants an actor for an archival reconstruction."
"Every client wants an archival reconstruction, Mizuki-san," Suzuki-san said, his pencil scratching steadily across his ledger. "Some of them simply lack the administrative vocabulary to write the script themselves. Takahashi-san wanted a 1994 edition of his daughter who lost her gym clothes; Sato-san wants a 1997 edition who ran away to Ota Ward. The difference is merely one of budget and filing systems."
"Did you read the end of the file?" I asked. "The legal settlement in 2014?"
"I am the branch manager," he said dryly. "I read all the files. It is required for our liability insurance."
"Why did she stop talking to him?"
Suzuki-san laid his pencil down on the desk with a tiny, dry tap. He folded his hands over his stomach, his thumbs circling each other slowly behind his yellowed fingernails.
"When his wife was dying of pancreatic cancer in the municipal hospital in Musashino," he said, his voice flat, neutral, entirely devoid of moral emphasis, "Sato-san brought a dictaphone to the intensive care unit. He recorded her last thirty-six hours so that the family would have an accurate historical record of her final instructions regarding the distribution of the family land in Nagano."
I stared at him. The air conditioner clicked off, its fan winding down with a long, metallic wheeze that left the room in sudden, hollow quiet.
"The real daughter," Suzuki-san continued, "threw the dictaphone through the double-glazed window of the fourth-floor corridor. It landed on the roof of the ambulance bay. She took her mother's wedding ring off the bedside table, walked down the emergency exit stairs, and got on a bus to Haneda Airport. She has not re-entered the country since the cremation."
"And he wants to buy that back for four thousand yen an hour?"
"He does not want to buy it back," Suzuki-san said, picking up his pencil again and dipping it into the carbon paper. "He wants to prove that his documentation was correct. If he can walk through Inokashira Park with a girl who looks eighty percent like Tomoko, who sits eighty percent like Tomoko, and who complains about the mochi with eighty percent of Tomoko’s inflection, then the version of reality in his file remains valid. The Ministry of International Trade and Industry does not make accounting errors, Mizuki-san. Even after it ceases to exist."
He tore a yellow duplicate slip from the ledger and slid it across the laminate counter toward me.
"Here is your transit authorization for tomorrow morning. Take the Keio Inokashira Line from Shibuya. It is eighty yen cheaper than the JR route through Shinjuku. Be at the south exit at ten-forty-five. Wear the beige trench coat, not the knit sweater. The dossier indicates she owned a British-style coat with horn buttons in the autumn of ninety-seven."
I took the slip. The paper was thin, greasy to the touch, smelling faintly of the kerosene heater in the corner.
"The trench coat has a stain on the hem," I said. "From a puddle near the laundry."
"Then walk on his right side," Suzuki-san replied without looking up. "His left eye has an incipient cataract. He won't see the hem unless you drop your umbrella."
I walked out of the office and down the four flights of dark stairs. The elevator remained suspended between the second and third floors, its open door revealing the motionless counterweight hanging in the gloom like an iron tombstone.
Outside, the midday sun was white and cold, reflected off the corrugated metal roofs of the small delivery warehouses that lined the back alley. A group of three young women from the stationery firm next door were standing near the vending machines, laughing over a bag of sweet rice crackers, their breath rising in short, energetic puffs of steam. They wore identical grey office uniforms with blue polyester cardigans, their employee badges dangling from lanyards around their necks, swinging in time with their laughter.
I looked at them. They had real mothers who sent them ugly sweaters from Yamagata; they had real fathers who called them on Sunday mornings to complain about the cost of kerosene or to ask how to reset the password on their tablet computers. They did not have to practice lifting the corners of their mouths seven millimeters before the electric kettle boiled. They did not have to calculate the price of a bus ticket in 1997 down to the last five-yen coin.
I put my hands into the pockets of my cardigan, felt the two ten-yen coins that Takahashi-san had given me the previous afternoon, and turned toward the station.
On the train back to Nakano, the car was mostly empty. A middle-aged salaryman was sleeping three seats away from me, his head tipped back against the glass window, his mouth open, snoring with a soft, rhythmic rattle like dry gravel being shaken in a tin can.
I pulled my compact mirror from my handbag, opened the round plastic case, and looked at my face in the circular glass.
I practiced the scowl.
I tilted my chin up five degrees. I lowered my eyelids until the pupils were half-covered by the lashes, cold and dismissive. I parted my lips slightly, letting the breath escape through my teeth with a faint, imperceptible hiss of annoyance.
The phone was broken. I didn't have any hundred-yen coins anyway.
A girl across the aisle—a student in a green high school blazer with a backpack covered in soft plush charms—glanced at me sideways, then quickly looked away, shifting her bag to the other knee as if she had accidentally made eye contact with a lunatic on the platform.
I snapped the compact shut.
The reflection disappeared into the dark plastic case. The train lurched as it crossed the points near Higashi-Nakano, the iron wheels screaming against the switch blades, and the city rushed past the double-paned window—a blur of grey concrete, telephone wires, and clotheslines heavy with wet laundry that refused to dry in the cold November air.
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